10 weeks in and they are not lying when they say that parenting is one of the hardest jobs ever. But it’s hard in a way that I never thought of and probably one that I can’t even explain all that well. I think what has been the hardest part for me is that I have had to literally relearn how to do my entire life. Things such as eating or carrying a conversation. And don’t even get me started on something like Time Management!
There are so many luxuries of my past life that are simply non-existent in my current state of motherhood. Some may return. Others can stay gone.
- Blow-drying my hair. Oh how I have spent hours applying product, drying, straightening, curling, and spraying my hair. I like to do my hair. My hair is my thing. Not so much right now. A blowout (not even a good blowout) is now a weekly luxury and boy do I feel glamorous when it’s done!
- Taking my health for granted. I have been fortunate to be quite healthy and in a healthy weight my whole life. So I got comfortable and complacent. Then pregnancy took over my body and did things that I wasn’t psyched about it doing. And now it’s starting to readjust. BUT, it’s given me a glimpse of a tired, stressed, and overweight body, and I AM SIMPLY NOT HAVING IT! I need to be around a LONG time and I need to keep up with her. So sayonara “good enough.”
- Watching a movie. Like a whole movie. Start to finish. I take that back. I did watch one movie from start to finish since L has arrived… but it took about 3 1/2 hours to get through the 90 minute film.
- Eating. Well, more like meal prepping. Thank God for shakes and crockpots. If it couldn’t be done one-handed, it might not happen.
- Giving a S#*&. Yikes. That sounds harsh. Especially from a health and business coach. Let me set this straight. I care A LOT, maybe even more than before, if YOU care. But I simply don’t have the time to care more than you do. And I definitely don’t have the luxury to care about things that simply don’t matter.
- Blogging. Scratch that. Lazy computer time in general. Sometimes, I truly miss thee. Wasting countless hours in an email/ Facebook/pinterest rotating trap. If it can’t be done easily on the iPhone, it probably doesn’t happen that often. It sucks to have to be more intentional with my time.
- Sleep. I don’t think that one needs any further description.
- Taking my time at achieving my expired, time-stamped goals. You see, I have someone watching me now. And many of those said, time-stamped goals are for her. Oh the lost luxury of not living up to my potential. Buh-bye.
- Sitting down. Dancing, bouncing, swaying, walking, squatting are my new ways of doing things. Probably why I can’t get a lot of computer time in. But at least it keeps me active.
- Being selfish. When you get married, you definitely take into account the thoughts and feelings of someone else, but it’s nothing like being a parent. There is no decision that I can make without thoroughly taking into consideration the many variables that will impact her. This includes me-time, which I take deliberately now.
And while some of the things of my past life I do miss… like a luxurious 8 hours of sleep… there is absolutely nothing better than getting smiled at by your precious baby and knowing that you are the most important person in her world. And, as in my conversations with her, I don’t take that job lightly. Everyday I will mess up. And everyday I will get better.
Thank you L for making me better.